Rebeca Escribens: “At this point in my life, the last thing I seek is acceptance… what you see is what you get”

-How do you feel about your first book?

Being born again, bringing out what I had kept inside, expressing myself, that’s the truth. Many people don’t know that as a child I wrote a lot about what I was feeling at the moment: poems, songs, I invented the melodies that later accompanied them. I decided to compile some of those anecdotes, stories, accounts of my life and put them into a book format, but in a very playful, unconventional way, which is why it has many little drawings accompanying the photos precisely of the moments when I tell those anecdotes.

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-You go back to the past, you remember your parents, your grandmothers. Why did you feel you had to reflect on your ancestors?

To be able to build my own story. I believe that as long as one does not make peace with their past, they cannot build a future. And mind you, I am an absolutely resilient and very positive person. However, there are always things that touch the heart and when I observe them they generate a lot of melancholy. I lost my mother at 22 years old, then my father, and with his death I was able to corroborate the pain and, above all, the feeling of orphanhood that has no age. At 49 years old I feel the orphanhood of turning around and not finding a place to cuddle, where to ask for advice, where to feel safe. But looking back also means stopping at certain places where you were not happy or where something happened in you that makes you behave a certain way when you are grown. And that is what I wanted to review and capture in the book.

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A rebellious show

“I don’t like perfection, I am anti-protocol, zero diplomatic. And that was what irritated my mom and dad the most. My show is called ‘I’m Not a Lady’ because those phrases have been running through my head since I can remember: ‘sit like a lady, eat like a lady, a lady doesn’t play like that.’ Then, when I got married, it was ‘behave like a lady’,” says Rebeca Escribens about the origin of the one-woman show she will present at the Dome of the Arts on September 24, 25, and 26 and October 1, 2, and 3. Tickets at Teleticket.

-How are you handling that emptiness? Your eldest son is no longer at home and the second one soon won’t be either.

I feel that empty stomach sensation when you fall in free fall. The relationship with parents is particular. The feeling that grief generates is very personal, but there is a deep loneliness. In my case, I carried for a long time the anger and rage that my children did not have grandparents. It makes me very nostalgic to come from Christmases with big tables, with a lot of noise, and now have to look for a way to leave my house because I can’t spend Christmas there. And with my children, I am starting to live the “empty nest.” Not with melancholy, but with gratitude, because honestly I already needed a little time for myself [laughs]. Actually, with infinite sadness. But now I have time for myself. I became a mother very young, 32 years ago, and I am beginning to live a adolescence that I postponed because I was a mom, and that is another grief.

-Have you managed to heal in some way by writing this book?

We all have existential problems, I don’t know if life is enough to heal us. What is true is that we have the task of reviewing our past to build a present and think about a future. It seems that I write with a certain nostalgia that disguises itself as depression. I would replace that word with reflection. At this moment in my life, I am going through a very reflective time, remembering my parents. That’s why in the book I leave blank lines so people can write and reflect. That brings us closer to reality, makes us empathize, think before speaking, breathe, and that is something I didn’t count on before because I have always been an impulsive woman. For the first time in my life, I am giving myself a pause to review what I have built over these 49 years and what I want for my next 55, because I will live to be 100 anyway. I love living.

-Why do you love life so much? What motivates you?

I love it. There is something that runs through my veins: it’s that adrenaline of wanting to do new things. Last year I had to leave “Mujeres de la PM” and “Planchando el despecho” because I desperately needed time for myself, to do nothing. Because in that nothing, when I was little, I found a world of creativity. I wrote, danced, did my shows. I needed to get home and say: “Let’s see, what do I invent.” There are three moments of epiphany in my life: when I drive, when I clean, and when I go to the bathroom. Participating in “Planchando el despecho” reminded me that as a child I wanted to be a vedette on stage. I don’t know if I could have done it with my dad alive. If he saw me this September 26 [in the one-woman show “I’m Not a Lady”], he would kill me. No, actually, he would applaud me. I also talk about that in the book.

-The father figure has been quite important in your life. Do you feel that now that he’s gone, you can be yourself?

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I always made and unmade my life, and that’s something I fought with mom and dad about. I always acted with absolute freedom and that’s why I had certain clashes with them. My father was a very observant and critical man. So, despite having a hyperconservative father and a submissive mother, I was able to make my life what I wanted. He never wanted me to dedicate myself to the artistic world. Deep down, after these reviews, I say: “I never got along well with my dad.” I built a relationship with him when I was already an adult, when I decided to stop seeing him as a dad and started seeing him as a simple human being who did what he could. From there, my relationship with him improved incredibly.

-Were you seeking his approval?

I think I always sought it. I realized this when my work on television was constant and we went out on the street and people stopped me to ask for photos and say nice things. I saw my dad’s face and his eyes lit up. I thank people because I think it helped my dad accept me, that was key. Mind you, at this point in my life the last thing I seek is acceptance, but I appreciate it… what you see is what you get. I don’t wait for the camera to turn on to put on a smile if I don’t feel like it. Not everything has to be perfect.

-It’s interesting to have that maturity or strength to look at yourself and face those pains. What we usually do is not think about that.

Brush it off. My chest hurts from so much crying because I didn’t have the chance to do it with my mom’s death. I had my eldest son little, 6 years old, I couldn’t afford to shed a tear even. Like a mountain train, straight ahead, straight ahead. I mean, I had to keep working and I couldn’t mourn her. I mourned her only when my second son was born, in 2009. I went through Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I had a very strong depression because at night when I was breastfeeding I looked for my mom. I said: “Who will take care of my son when I’m gone?”

-Now at home you have Leo, your little dog, who has his own pages in the book.

If Leo hadn’t been in my life, I don’t know what would have happened. Because of that little dog, I got out of bed. There are moments when you don’t have the strength, but I had to take him for a walk. If I didn’t eat, he didn’t eat. If I didn’t get up for eight hours, he didn’t even get up to drink water. My children ask me, if I had to choose between them and Leo, who would I choose. “Leo, of course,” I tell them. They laugh a lot.

And like every dog mom, Rebeca takes out her phone and shows us the portrait of the beautiful Leíto.

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Open pages

The book “The Right to Be Born Again” (Academia Antártica, 2026) by Rebeca Escribens delves into the soul of the author, but the reader will also be able to see themselves reflected. It is a dynamic read, with illustrated photos and pages where readers are invited to write their reflections. It is available at the Lima International Book Fair, at Kokoro Books stand 110.

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